Evolution

It can be easy to get caught up in the self help and spirituality worlds.

They can make the unknowable concepts of life seem approachable and wrapped in a neat box.

Wellness culture paints growth as a pretty picture full of aesthetically pleasing filters and organized morning routines leading to success. The spiritual world promises self actualization and awakening.

Both leave you with the undertone that you are not ok, not enough, exactly where you are. That something must be done in this moment to get you to your next level.

The constant striving towards evolution.

Although this may not be the intention or something most are aware of, the self help world banks on us feeling not good enough. If we didn’t all think we needed something more to “become,” the industry that is spirituality, self help, and wellness would not exist in the way it does.

This is in no way me putting down spiritual practices and the desire to use them as ritual and keys to growth and understanding. I build my life around that value. But there is a difference in utilizing the tools that feel aligned for your path, and needing to rely on the process of self growth to fill a sense of lack.

I have done this. There can be a part of me attached to the never ending desire of growth. I have done a lot of things under the guise of growth and spirituality that truly stemmed from self rejection.

While my connection to my spirituality is a core component of my life, it has also been a tool I have used to prove my not enoughness. There have been times when self growth and evolution was my life in an unhealthy well. It served me at the time and yet it came from a place of insecurity. It was a way to fix myself. To appease the anxiety within me that told me if I was not seeking evolution, I was not ok. Because surely being who I was in that moment was not enough.

You don’t need to be seeking evolution.

Your evolution will come, it’s inevitable. Growth finds us. That is life.

And the spiritual tools, practices, teachers and experiences we are meant to have fall into our lap at the right time when we ask for them and trust they will arrive.

When we lean into loving ourselves exactly as we are, we can follow our path to our next version of self with peace and ease.

We do not need to turn to spirituality and growth as a way of fixing and rejecting our present selves.

Our intuition can guide us, and always with love.

Don’t be fooled by the pretty picture wellness culture can paint - self growth, evolution, even self love, is usually not an Instagram worthy photo. It is in the softening, the surrendering, the connecting. The light and the cracks and the inbetween.

Don’t use “self-love” practices out of self-hate. Don’t let the monetized watered down version of spirituality and wellness fool you.

You are enough exactly as you are. And your evolution is here, walking hand and hand with your intuition.